I knew of Him but I didn’t really know Him. 

When they talked about Him like they were talking about a best friend, I waited in painful silence. Wishing the conversation would end, or maybe…maybe we could just change the subject so that I would have something…anything to add. 

You see I knew of Him but I didn’t really know Him, at least not in that way. 

I could talk about Him, but not in that way. That way was too intimate, just too personal. I mean could anybody really know him in that way, anyway?

Theresa thought you could. 

To her, he was her confidant and her special friend. She would spend hours locked in her room, just talking to Him. I used to scratch my head wondering, “what could she possibly have to talk about for so long. I mean really!” 

I hated to admit it but there was a bit of, dare I say jealousy. She knew Him so well, but He was so intangible to me.

I remember when that all changed. He challenged me to stop being more concerned about doing things for Him and to just focus on being with Him. He told me that He didn’t create me to just run errands for Him, but to be in relationship with Him.

What a mind-blowing concept! Here I was always “the Martha” and He was inviting me to behave more like Mary. 

So, I accepted the challenge. 

Over the next few months, He revealed Himself to me in ways that I could never have imagined. From an intangible voice in the sky, He became a tangible and real companion. When I say He became real, I mean He became walking in the park with people all around while I am talking to Him, real. I mean, of course, they couldn’t see Him and probably felt I was surely talking to myself, but I didn’t care. I was enjoying what I had only heard about for so long…real intimacy.

I came to realize that it was possible to know Him in that way. In fact, that’s the only way to really know Him. 

The question is, do you know Him in that way? I used to believe that only a few select people could know Him in that way. But I have learned that’s not true. More than my desire to know Him in that way was His desire to be known by me.

Maybe you’re where I was. Knowing of Him but not really knowing Him. If that’s you, I want you to know there’s more. And you don’t have to figure it out alone. There are others on this same journey, and we’d love for you to walk it with us. I promise your life will never be the same